Broken, and It's Okay

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My church does a series ever summer called At The Movies. Each week a different popular film from the year is discussed and Christian themes drawn from it.

I haven't seen any of the movies this year, but I definitely want to see The Greatest Showman after watching a few clips.

I'm usually not a musical person, but this was fantastic. And the song This is Me in particular made me cry. Like...I may have definitely downloaded it and cried singing on the way home.

The movie is about the creation of a circus, and this song in particular is from the circus performers. At this point in the movie, they are mistreated and not taking it any more. The song begins:

I'm not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
'Cause we don't want your broken parts
I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one will love you as you are

But I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious


I'm still feeling anxious. My summer class seems to have been a trigger that kicked my anxiety from low-level to high-level. And I have not yet figured out the best ways to deal with it...other than sleeping, which is not always an option and definitely not always the best option.

And I get stressed about the fact that I am stressed...which is just a horrible thing.

But this song made me feel okay about it. This song made me realize that I can't care what people think- whether I should be anxious or shouldn't, how I should or shouldn't deal with it...who I should "admit" the truth too or who will only make it worse. The song made me realize that I am me, and I am enough, within myself, even when I am broken.

I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I'm meant to be, this is me
Look out 'cause here I come
And I'm marching on to the beat I drum
I'm not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

I'm thankful for reminders of how resilient the human spirit is, of how fickle society's approval is, of the value of self-love. 

I'm thankful for moments of hope. If that hope is only three minutes of a song...then I will hit replay until the words are truly written in my heart and mind and soul. 

2 comments

  1. THIS SONG makes me cry every time too! And you should go see this movie. I'm slightly obsessed. YES... PT Barnum was actually a super shady person and this movie isn't accurate blah blah blah but... HUGH JACKMAN AND ZACH EFRON and the music is wonderful.

    And I'm glad this song made you feel okay about your anxeity. ::hugs::

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  2. Yes, I definitely want to see it! But I am going to have to save it for a time I can bawl the way I know I am going to, haha!

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